#ShortStory – 안영?

“so, what should we do now?” “you know the answer anyway.” “but-” “no. there is no doubt for this anymore, we can't be together. this is the end of our story and we both knew it from the start that we won't make it lasts...” “I'm such a fool, aren't I? I know that this thing gonna happen someday. but I don't know that that we're facing this now. I still don't know how to handle this kind of feeling. because I never thought that loosing you would be this hard.” “but what more can we do? let's just end this..” “I know. we should. we have to.”

—cloudsans November 30th, 2015

#ShortStory – Birthday Gone.

“Happy birthday” he said with such tender voice. His eyes were sparkling and it speaks about happiness louder than a crying-babies. He held my hands that were as cold as snow in December then I closed my eyes to feel his little touch. The next thing I knew, he handed me a bucket of Baby’s Breath which is my favorite flower that he took from my mother’s mini garden.

I thought he won’t come, I thought that he won’t even remember. But then I saw him standing in front of me, wearing that faded black sweater and his stupid smile told me that he won’t go.

But everything seems like a kaleidoscope for me. As I open my eyes, everything was gone.

—cloudsans September 14th, 2015 / 12:17

#Ethereal #ShortStory – Apakah Kau Benar-Benar Bahagia?

Bagaimana rasanya menjadi dirimu? Pasti sangat menyenangkan. Aku selalu berpikir mengenai satu hal, tentang apakah kau benar-benar bahagia? Ini memang impianmu, dan sekarang kau telah berhasil mencapainya. Setelah semua yang terjadi padamu, terkadang aku melihat siluet kesedihan yang tersirat diwajahmu. Aku tahu kau ingin membaginya. Tetapi kau tidak bisa. Kau tidak boleh. Seorang idola, tidak boleh terlihat sedih ataupun marah. Seorang idola, hanya harus menampilkan sisi cerianya, bukan begitu?

Kau berusaha kuat untuk menyembunyikannya dari semua orang. Tetapi aku tahu, bahkan saat kau tak berbicara satu patah kata pun, aku bisa merasakan rasa sakit yang sama. Jika sudah seperti itu, aku merasa menjadi orang yang paling tidak berguna di dunia. Aku tahu kau sakit, marah, sedih, ingin menangis dan berteriak.

Aku tahu kau butuh seseorang untuk meredakan semua itu, tetapi aku tidak bisa melakukan apapun untuk meringankan bebanmu meskipun aku sangat ingin...

Lalu, katakan padaku bagaimana caranya kau bisa bertahan dan terlihat baik-baik saja disaat semuanya bahkan menyakitimu?

Aku ingin menjadi seseorang yang bisa menenangkanmu, seseorang yang bisa kau andalkan, seseorang yang kau cari disemua suasana hatimu.

Jadi, apakah kau benar-benar merasa bahagia?

—cloudsans 01 Juli 2015 / 13:35

#ShortStory – She’s gone.

Today, like a fool I’m standing in front of that coffee shop we used to spend our times. I see you right now; sitting down, comforted by a cup of warm mochaccino on your hand. How I miss that beautiful smile that used to be mine, those sparkling eyes that seems always telling me to calm when I’m a mess, and that lips... I’m just standing here, my eyes glued on you. Hoping you don’t see me with this tearing eyes. My trembling hands wanted to reach you. You’re so close, yet so far... I see you are laughing, freely. When you about to go from that place, I see a man grab your hand tightly. And that’s when I realized that you moved on.

—cloudsans May 13th, 2015

#ShortStory – Cheesy Boy.

“Hei. kau tidak lelah?” “Lelah? Maksudmu?” “Iya lelah. Kau tidak lelah terus berlari-lari dipikiranku?” “Hah??” “Kau punya peta?” “Tidak. untuk apa?” “Astaga! sepertinya aku tersesat dimatamu.” “(((ini cheesy, tapi dia sangat manis!)))” “Kau tahu tidak, Tuhan menciptakan 100 malaikat di dunia ini. 99 malaikat berada disetiap belahan dunia yang berbeda.” “Lalu kemana yang satunya?” “Dia dihadapanku.” (wink)

—cloudsans 28 April 2015

#ShortStory – stay.

“Promise me one thing. You must be happy like this. Always, for the rest of your life. Even you do it without me.” “Man, you know my own description about ‘happiness’ well than anyone else.” “And you know mine either. My happiness is yours.” “Shit. Don’t you dare to leave me!” “I already dare my life time to be with you, Ann.” “Then you should stay. If you can’t, just let me go with you.” “Ann. This is not that easy. I’m leaving soon.” “You know that it will never be easy to be without you...” “But you have to, you promised me, though.”

—cloudsans April 24th, 2015 / 01:08

#ShortStory – 그만해

“Why are u being like that?” “What? Why?” “You keep smiling and fooling around everyone. You laugh, you keep joking like hyper. But don’t get me wrong. I’m not that fool, Vay.” “Why so sudden—” “STOP IT. PLEASE, VAYA! I BEG YOU. You smile but it doesn’t reach your eyes. You laugh but it sounds like thunder for me. I know you hurt too, I know you are absolutely not fine at all, worse than ever. You can’t even cry, rite? Just staring blankly like you lost your own spirit. Please, Vaya, if u tired just don’t do it anymore. I’m here u know...” “I was failed. In the end, I can’t hide it from you.”

—cloudsans April 23rd, 2015

#ShortStory – Stupid Me.

“I’m sorry, I know these words won’t change anything. I also knew that I’ll be a cruel person if I ask you to believe in me once again after the promises had been broken for several times… I don’t know how to make you forgive me, but, deep in my heart, I didn’t mean to cause you trouble.”

“You know, you don’t have to say sorry at all. After all these scars that you made, I always look back to you and even when I’m crying out loud, I still love you no matter what. Seeing you like this, it hurts me as well. Although I said I will forget you, I realize that that was a biggest lie I’ve ever made. It's okay. Just hurt me as much as you want. I won’t change. Stupid me, aren’t I?”

—cloudsans April 22nd, 2015

#ShortStory – Yellow.

“Aku baru menyelesaikan satu laguku. Kau mau mendengarkan?” “Tentu!” “Even when the light’s fade, Even when the night’s gone. I will make sure to keep you safe, Until the angel heals your wound. Just take my hand and we’ll fly away. As the smiles bring you through the day.” “Wow. Itu cheesy.” “Tidak bisakah kau mengeluarkan komentar yang lebih bagus?” “Seperti apa?” “Ya, misalnya, ‘Hey. Lagumu bagus sekali! Terimakasih telah membuatkannya untukku.’” “T-tunggu. Kau bilang apa barusan?” “Lupakan.” “Untukku? Maksudmu, kau membuatkan lagu itu untukku? Untuk-ku?” “Sudahlah, kau pulang sana!” “Tidak mau. Ayo nyanyikan sekali lagi!” “Tidak.” “Kau benar-benar manis, Mark. Sungguh!” “Kosa katamu buruk, Kei.” “Perduli apa. Kau harus menyanyikan lagu itu sampai aku tertidur.” “My Lord. Aku tahu akan seperti ini...” “Aku menunggu, Mark.” “Yeah.”

—cloudsans 20 April 2015

#ShortStory – One Day.

“Hei. Ayo kita lakukan to-do-list yang aku buat!” “Yeah. Selama itu bukan hal-hal bodoh. Tetapi itu sangat mustahil.” “Itu sarkastis, kau tahu.” “Kau paham maksudku.” “Oh ayolah! Hari ini saja, tidak bisakah kau bersikap manis padaku?” “Nope.” “Terimakasih, Ken. Aku sangat menghargai itu.” “Lalu apa yang akan kita lakukan hari ini?” “Eumm...” “Bungee Jumping?! KAU GILA??” “Kau sudah berjanji tidak akan menolak, Ken.” “(Sigh) Bunuh saja aku, Diandra.”

—cloudsans 20 April 2015