How cruel is it when fate didn’t go as I please? I heard them whispering, such a downy whisper ‘till it could slate my skin open. “They looked happy, but— Could they be really happy?” Ah… shit. Here we go again. This agony I can’t even face alone since you’ve been here with me for all of my good and bad times. Now all I have is its lingering feeling I don’t want to feel because it terrifies me so much. I hate this feeling, I hate this fate, But I don’t resent you. I am on your side since the very first day we’ve met and you knew it too, right? There’s just so much things I want to tell you… But again, all I can say is I’m sorry. I’m sorry for hating myself, I’m sorry for choosing this fate, And I’m sorry that I let you facing those misery on your own where I should be there with you in the first place. Now that my time has come, and I can finally see you again. I’m going home, my friend. I’m going home, so let’s be happy together.
Yes, satosugu it is.
—cloudsans October 16th, 2023 / 14.55